black day

today....i feel enormous amount of anger filling my heart...

yet i am sad

i am dissappointed too....

i am usually able to restrain all the bad words that my mouth can reveal ,behind all the bad circumstances that happened to me... i asked myself if i did the mistakes if i expode my anger all out or i keep it to myself.. worn out condition also takes its toll on me...yet another party have thought of himself above all..i used to convince myself to never ever disturbing another's life. let them go and fly wherever they want..if they miss me enough, they'll come back and hug me.

but today is not the same day which i can control myself well enough.. my mind blackout and want to explode..my mouth can't be shut and i break it out. weary? oh yes. i even cancel the appointment with my fiend for this stupido thing. i felt dense and imprudent. hahahaz...

stupid stupid me....i hope it will never come back.